Sunday, 1 December 2013
29 November 2013
It's been a month since i last neglect this space of mine(as always), have been procrastinating almost everyday ever since i'm caught down with the never-ending running nose, on-and-off fever and sore throat after my Bangkok trip. An excuse for me to rest and NOT TO GO to work despite the motivation i had for myself back then. BUT Nevertheless, i'm back on track or rather running on a slightly tougher track i've got myself into this time round..
I've no idea what kind of stress i've got myself into either, it's just that i've been pressurizing myself for no apparent reason, and all i could do is keep moving forward to the extend that i've no idea what i'm pursuing anymore, an aimless goals i suppose..
02 December 2013
I'm suppose to publish my previous post few days back, but i left it unattended till today because i feel there's still something in me that i'm not able to just.. Pen down my thought here through words after words. It's just too much of a complicated and indescribable stress in me that i've been pressurizing myself of. Life were awesome, guess i'm not taught how to see things in a different angle yet.
This is so not me.
When i'm not happy, i never will be..
Friday, 15 November 2013
Finally, i've some time for myself blogging on my bangkok trip. It's been two weeks since my class started and here i am with running nose and my never ending sore-throat since few months back. Can't wait to get back on track with a new lifestyle i've planned for myself.
Before i begin, i wanna to do a topic on "SCAM" in one of the red light district.
I'm not a travel person, and to be frank it's my second time flying to Bangkok. I believe that most of you that are reading this right now must have been there before. So i'm not sure whether all of you know but i'm here writing is because i want everyone to be aware of it and not be like me, making your trip an unhappy one.
Photo's credit to Google.
Basically, i had a fight regarding a visit down to patpong for "thai-girls show" because of his curiosity. And so it's more like a cold war from my hotel to Patpong. And yes, probably both of us didn't manage to calm ourselves down at that point of time, out of anger we kept silence and followed a stranger to one of the "thai girl shows" at pink pussy. We were told that there were no cover charge or any charges at first, when what we have to pay for was the drinks at 100 baht only by this conmen. Before we order our drinks, we actually made another confirmation on the charges wise again with the conmen(and not the waitress)..
Anyway, here is the link to another victim of the same bar who experience the same incident as me, and also other scams such as "tuk-tuk drivers bringing you to expensive seafood restaurant" and etc..; http://www.bangkokscams.com/no-other-charges-scam-at-patpong-beware/
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Time for some fun-loving and sweet desserts with the cutie pie at Purr Cat Cafe. A few weeks before i fly to Bangkok, i can't remember whether it's me or someone who actually found a link/article on facebook regarding a popular cat cafe in bkk. Since then, i've always wanna make my trip down to the cat cafe to take a look, and guess what? I found my love at first sight, but initially he walk away the first time i pat on him.. ):
Some dessert to begin you day with.. <3
Please read the instruction before entering, if not, there goes your 1000baht.
Tuesday, 29 October 2013
Hello! It's been a really busy year for me to be managing my time on my studies and work as well as spending more time on my family members. The fact that 24/7 will never be enough for me to finish up everything at one go because there is TOO MANY things that i want to do and barely TOO LITTLE time for myself. I would say that life were pretty cock up when a series of events happened on the month of April, last year.
Ever since then, i've decided to depends on various event assignments given by the prospective talent agencies but, it doesn't last until i've got myself into nightlife. I'm pretty much low-profile and i believe that some of you who are reading gonna start feeling a little negative of me right now, in fact this is how the society work, being judgmental and how they react to people who work in the nightlife.
Well, there is nothing to be proud or hideous about working in the night.
I wanna say something justice for the people in the night, at least how i feel about it after working in various clubs for seven consecutive months. Well, the majority of society feels that people who work in nightlife are nothing decent. I would like to emphasis on the "indecent" part, because i feel the injustice for people like me. It's not every girl/guy who works in the night goes for branded goods or fuck around, some work really hard for themselves and their family, so don't judge. No, i'm not being defensive here, but this is the least i could do for the minorities.
For the past seven months, i met different types of peoples, learn to handle different types of situation and stand up for myself and also, change my prospective of views towards certain things. Life were pretty awesome then, it's like partying almost every night until i got sick of alcohol and nicotine for now. I would pretty much say that.. it's really good money, but well..
"Self-discipline is still important."
Nightlife, something new ever since the clock strike twelve in the middle of the night, when i officially turn eighteenth last year. My virgin trip down to "Zirca", and i found out that club isn't the thing for me. A word, boring. Well, since i've start working in the event's, i got to know one of the event girls who text me a event job one day and this is how i first started.
I've never regret my decision after much of an advise given because i believe that as long as there's this discipline in me, i'll not walk the wrong path. Truth is, nobody ever gave me their support in anything i do, they feel that i'm still a kid. Probably, because i'm too used to being "a-five-years-old-girl" in everyone's eye with all the jokes and bimbotic answers, so the word "maturity" never exist in my dictionary. I often felt left out, because they thought i was "dumb-in-nature" or rather "a-bimbo" to even begin with. My words/advises can never be compare with people who have "a higher qualification than me" or "older than me" when giving the same advises to one.
I used to think that by proving them wrong would make them shut their mouth, i was wrong. Initially, i realize that every single thing i do now, is for the sake of myself. I don't owe anyone a living, as long as my conscience is clear and have no regrets on any decision i've made..
As i mentioned about the people i've met here, some of them taught me pretty much of things in life, a great influence to me. This is something who really makes me wanna work harder for myself and my future. I used to think that fame and popularity is everything, but not anymore. There's is something more important in life, because we only live once. And yes, i do encounter some nasty people, but time taught me to handle such situation and not allow people to take advantage of me easily. And because i'm strong enough to faced the worst, i'm no longer that girl who cries over people negative/abusive comments anymore. I learnt the hard way, so i'll never allow history to repeat. If i would to die over what people really think of me, then all the efforts after all these months is gonna be put to waste.
Yes, like i've also mentioned that it's pretty much for a nineteenth years old girl to be earning such horrendous amount each month. The fact that i'm still in the event industries taking up assignments as and when i could regardless how my schedule works.. And sometimes, i would take up both event and night jobs in a day after my lessons that i've completely forgotten about my dinner. The reason why i'm so "chiong" and work almost everyday is because every 3/4 of what i've earned goes right into my savings and school fees. I'm only given 4-5 hours of sleep almost everyday, waking up late to school like a zombie until i self-declare off day for myself.
I were pretty much drained by now, on the seventh month, which is today. Experiencing drainage, gastric pains, an mild eye infection for the long hours of wearing contact lens. I'm sound like a pathetic dumb-fuck, but it's all worth it after all my hard work. Some might even think that i'm working permanently in the night, but uh-uh! NO. People who still preserve the old traditional values, would be thinking that i could just get a full time job together with part time studies. WELL.. I've my own plans of taking up my degree and full-time job soon after my dip. So it weren't be long until i really get my ass off from the drinks, so meanwhile if i could earn and save more for my studies, why not?
I'm not really encouraging people to work in the night, because it really takes up a lot perseverance and discipline to obtain these much. At times, i really feel like giving up too. But seven consecutive months of enduring all the alcoholic intakes, politics, the time i've lost with my family members and etc., it's all worth it..
It's been really long since i had such a wordy post here, and all these days i've been hesitating on how people will look at me again after all these confession. Asking myself; Does it really all matter after eveything?